the remake of uglybetty

gay partner

2011-05-02T11:52:00.000-07:00

Muhammad Ahnaf Rabbani bin Muhamad Radzi

DongHae, KyuHyun ft Han Ji Min - Happy Bubble CF ( MV ver )

2011-01-13T20:16:00.000-08:00

ALPHABUTT XD

2010-07-30T22:32:00.000-07:00

A is for apple
B is for butt
C is for cat butt
D for doo doo
E is for elephant doo doo
F is for fart
G is for gorilla fart
H is for huge gorilla fart
I is for I-ball (eyeball)
J is for jammies
K is for kid fart
L is for lotta loud farts
M is for monkey butt
N is for saying night-night to me go at naptime
O is for oh
P is for panda peeing and pooping in her potty while papa plays peek-a-boo
Q is for Q-Bert
R is for robotic monkey who's gonna take over the world
S is for stinky
T is for turd
U is uh-oh
V is for flying vee
W is for wee-wee
X is for X-zuckamundoe
Y is for yucky and yummy and you
And Z is for farts that smell like the zoo

Matriculation Life

2010-05-27T22:36:00.001-07:00

So far , living in Kolej Matrikulasi Negeri Sembilan (KMNS) wasn't that bad .

okay la dekat sini . the buildings wasn't that so called 'kaboom' style la .

my adik selalu cakap that my place mcm penjara moden .( do imagine yourself ) HAHA.

Duduk dekat block A3 . 4 . 11 with three others. my roomies semua 1 kepala .

easy to get along with . hehe ..

syasya (si kecil ) , ummi (k.long) & zaqerah mmg best la .

they all so open till i can actually share everything with them.

the funny part is semua tinggal dekat2 je . paling jauh pun k.long sorang je . tu pun kat melaka je .

boleh dikatakan setiap weekend balik la . HAHA !

toilet ; okayokay la .xdala teruk sangat sampai xda air and kena beratur panjang .

FOOD; best and MURAH ! seriously , i tend to eat a lot here .

im going down to earth :)

2010-05-08T19:28:00.000-07:00

special dedication to those who touched my life either directly or indirectly ;

Feelin Oh so bouncy
Oh so lively baby
The skies turning oh so rainy
Now its bright and sunny
Because of you
I started to sing a song
That goes SHA DA DA DA
Without you around
My days seems so frown
You make me smile when im down
Spelling out ABC, Counting 123, Singing DoReMi
Im feeling so damn happy
To have you here with me
Spelling out ABC, Counting 123, Singing DoReMi
Baby i hope you'd see
How much you mean to me
Having all those thoughts when everything's far away
Im starting to miss you
Every night and day
When i hear your laughters
You make my heart go sha da da da
Without you around my days seems so frown
You make me smile when im down

I seriously BIGHEART YOU guys & girls .
millions of thankyou .

btw ppl ; this gonna be my last post till my semester break .
thanks for following my blog anyway . oh , someday i should belanja everyone makan :)

cheers to all XD

lots of loves & bighugs

Going Green Can Be Hot, Steamy, and Sexy

2010-04-30T05:54:00.000-07:00

While some greensters may wear sexy lingerie made from tree pruning scraps and use earth-friendly sex toys, there's more to being sexy than the eco-choices you make. Let's turn things over to the ecosexy gang at F*ck for Forest (FFF -- warning, that link isn't really safe for work, or family-friendly) for further explanation ;

"We believe that humanity's bad relationship to sexuality has a lot in common with the destroying of nature. Sexuality is a beautiful part of nature. We want to use this gift to put focus on what is happening to this planet and try to protect it ... We believe that through a better relationship to our spiritual and sexual body, we can change the reality around us. So open-minded sexual behavior is a great way for us to achieve our goals, and at the same time have a great life. Not everything that is political or meaningful has to be boring." by Mickey Z.

Great, Cheap, Green Food Options
How and where you'll find the greenest goods that money can buy.

Sometimes, it can seem like putting all this effort into developing a greener lifestyle is costing a fortune: you can get to feeling like you've got to do things like buy a hybrid or shop only at expensive health food stores. Not so, my friends. Not so.
But I don't blame those who feel overwhelmed by the price tags on many 'green' items. That's why I've come up with a list of green goods that are cheap and affordable.

-Organic/Local Vegetables
-Home Baked Whole Wheat Bread
-Organic Tortilla Chips
-Coffee at McDonald's?
*What the hell is green about that, you ask, perhaps angrily. McDonald's is, after all, one of the most un-green corporations around. Well, ever since McDonald's started selling organic coffee in the Northeastern US, it's actually been a good place to find cheap, green coffee. The coffee is made by Newman's Own, a fantastic, eco-conscious company.

-Free Range Eggs
-Grass-Fed Beef
-Chicken Wings
-Organic Chocolate

loves & bighugs :)

noise of my empty soul ♫♪

2010-04-29T08:15:00.000-07:00

***** , you're still the one I run to . The one that I belong to. You're still the one I want for life . You're still the one that I love . The only one I dream of . You're still the one I kiss goodnight .
i miss you so badly :( everytime i think about you it makes me upset . it makes me feel that i need you the most in my life . more than anything else .

im so depressed ..

.. until one day , my long long lost friend came over my place with his guitar and sang this song to me ..

Hey uglydolly , don't make it bad
Take a sad song and make it better
Remember to let him into your heart
Then you can start to make it better
Hey uglydolly , don't be afraid
You were made to go out and get him
The minute you let him under your skin
Then you begin to make it better
And any time you feel the pain,
Hey uglydolly, refrain
Don't carry the world upon your shoulders
For well you know that it's a fool who plays it cool
By making her world a little colder
Hey uglydolly don't let me down
You have found him now go and get him
Remember to let him into your heart
Then you can start to make it better
So let it out and let it in
Hey uglydolly begin
You're waiting for someone to perform with
And don't you know that it's just you
Hey uglydolly , you'll do
The movement you need is on your shoulder

... and i took my first move . Again .. my relationship with the new guy doesn't worked as well . both decided to broke up .

so .. currently I am all alone but I don't really care at all , not answering my phone . All the games you played & all the promises you made , you couldn't finish what you started only darkness still remains . Lost sight, couldn't see when it was you and me ..
Blow the candles out looks like a solo tonight , but I think I'll be alright .
Been black and blue before there's no need to explain .
I am not the jaded kind , Playback's such a waste . You're invisible . At least you're invisible to me . My wish is coming true that is to erase the memory of your face .

but my dear ***** , you'll always be part of me indirectly .
and and having a special boyfriend is no longer my addictive .

loves & bighugs :)

Romantic History ♥

2010-04-17T08:18:00.000-07:00

I'd had a relationship with a man for almost two years. I wasn't living with him. I'd never lived with anyone—and I thought I was worthless without him. The more he rejected me, the more I wanted him. I felt depleted, powerless. At the end, I was down on the floor on my knees groveling and pleading with him.

I became so depressed that I wrote a suicide note . But I couldn't kill myself. I would be afraid the minute I did it, something really good would happen and I'd miss it.

***** was just the best. That man loved me even when I was bald(caused by stupid fringe haircut) ! He was wonderful. He stuck with me through the whole demoralizing experience. We really did care for each other. That man was the most fun romance I ever had. We shared a deep love. A love I will never forget.

Ohh.. getting fatter after all these experiences .

The reason I gained so much weight in the first place and the reason I had such a sorry history of abusive relationships with men was I just needed approval so much. I needed everyone to like me, because I didn't like myself much. So I'd end up with these cruel self-absorbed guys who'd tell me how selfish I was, and I'd say “Oh thank you, you're so right” and be grateful to them. Because I had no sense that I deserved anything else. Which is also why I gained so much weight later on. It was the perfect way of cushioning myself against the world's disapproval .

p/s : I've been liking you for a very long time . But sadly, you left me with pathetic lame excuses .

lots of loves & bighugs :)

when we pay a visit ;)

2010-04-08T01:56:00.000-07:00

long journey on the highway :)

the so 'kampung' style house . one cute house . trust me :)

starring ;

the big rockstar ;)

our miss plsdrivecarefully a.k.a the 'congkak' champion :)

the owner :)

the inefficient tour guide :)
* he's late for 10 minutes *

the 'dota' player .

mr. plscutyourhair .
* mcD worker *

activities ;

DOTA in the morning :)

CONGKAK in the afternoon :)

DUTCH BALL in the evening :)

special thanks to ;
- nenek
- nina
- pami
- ayoi
- pais
- yus

lots of loves & bighugs ;)

hellYEAH i wanna be a ROCKSTAR !! ;)

2010-04-03T20:29:00.000-07:00

DROPDEADGORGEOUS rockstar bby :)

I'm through with standing in line
to clubs we'll never get in
It's like the bottom of the ninth
and I'm never gonna win
This life hasn't turned out
quite the way I want it to be

(Tell me what you want)

I want a brand new house
on an episode of Cribs
And a bathroom I can play baseball in
And a king size tub big enough
for ten plus me

(Tell me what you need)

I'll need a credit card that's got no limit
And a big black jet with a bedroom in it
Gonna join the mile high club
At thirty-seven thousand feet

(Been there done that)

I want a new tour bus full of old guitars
My own star on Hollywood Boulevard
Somewhere between Cher and
James Dean is fine for me

(So how ya gonna do it?)

I'm gonna trade this life for fortune and fame
I'd even cut my hair and change my name

'Cause we all just wanna be big rockstars
And live in hilltop houses driving fifteen cars
The girls come easy and the drugs come cheap
We'll all stay skinny 'cause we just won't eat
And we'll hang out in the coolest bars
In the VIP with the movie stars
Every good gold digger's
Gonna wind up there
Every Playboy bunny
With her bleach blond hair

Hey hey I wanna be a rockstar
Hey hey I wanna be a rockstar

I wanna be great like Elvis without the tassels
Hire eight body guards that love to beat up assholes
Sign a couple autographs
So I can eat my meals for free

(I'll have a quesadilla on the house)

I'm gonna dress my ass
with the latest fashion
Get a front door key to the Playboy mansion
Gonna date a centerfold that loves to
blow my money for me

(So how ya gonna do it?)

I'm gonna trade this life
For fortune and fame
I'd even cut my hair
And change my name

'Cause we all just wanna be big rockstars
And live in hilltop houses driving fifteen cars
The girls come easy and the drugs come cheap
We'll all stay skinny 'cause we just won't eat
And we'll hang out in the coolest bars
In the VIP with the movie stars
Every good gold digger's
Gonna wind up there
Every Playboy bunny
With her bleach blond hair
And we'll hide out in the private rooms
With the latest dictionary and
today's who's who
They'll get you anything
with that evil smile
Everybody's got a
drug dealer on speed dial
Hey hey I wanna be a rockstar

I'm gonna sing those songs
that offend the censors
Gonna pop my pills
from a pez dispenser
Get washed-up singers writing all my songs
Lip sync em every night so I don't get 'em wrong

Well we all just wanna be big rockstars
And live in hilltop houses driving fifteen cars
The girls come easy and the drugs come cheap
We'll all stay skinny 'cause we just won't eat
And we'll hang out in the coolest bars
In the VIP with the movie stars
Every good gold digger's
Gonna wind up there
Every Playboy bunny
With her bleach blond hair
And we'll hide out in the private rooms
With the latest dictionary and
today's who's who
They'll get you anything
with that evil smile
Everybody's got a
drug dealer on speed dial
Hey hey I wanna be a rockstar
Hey hey I wanna be a rockstar

yeah ! ROCKSTAR by nickelback .

loves & bighugs :)

love is in the air ;)

2010-03-31T21:12:00.000-07:00

special dedication to my part time lover and full time friend ;)

''As much as we all deny it, we want someone to put their life on hold for us. We will never admit it, because it's so selfish, but it's something we all crave ''

My heart is open and my arms are too
Waiting to share my love with you,
Making you happy any way I can
Smiles and hugs are in my plan,

Melting me with your glowing smile
Calming with that gentle style,
There is no place else I`d rather be
Than in your heart for eternity,

Hand in hand is the dream I hold
Hoping you share after these words are told,
Life with you will be a fairytale
Where beautiful love will never fail,

I choose to keep these feelings dear
My message should now be clear,
I`ll cherish you from this day on
Until the day this world is gone,

Forever you are in my heart

'' & one day you'll say "damn that girl really loved me..why did I let her go!'' "

loves & bighugs ;)

attitude , after all , is everything ;)

2010-03-31T00:54:00.000-07:00

''life is too short to waste time hating people''

A lot of teens go through times when they feel depressed or feel that people hate them & they have no friends.
Others just like to put down people and hurt others or make fun of them.
I hate seeing that happen or hearing about it.
It would hurt you if someone did that to you wouldn't it?
Therefore I wrote this in hoping that someone might read it and find some sort of comfort or hope in themselves.

I always make it a point to laugh and smile & never let anyone know whether I am having a bad day or not. Then maybe everyone will feel better by seeing someone who can have a positive attitude about life.

few tips to make u feel okay in life ;)

Never be awful to anyone, that person you were awful to may teach you the most.

Always remember...you are a somebody, God didn't take the time to create a nobody.

Always smile, you never know whose day you might be making.

Never 'forget' to say hi to anyone, never miss the chance to laugh or smile, never get too caught up in yourself that you forget to help others.

Never forget that you aren't the only one with problems, and most of all...never forget that when you feel like you only have one friend, that friend will remind you of all the others.

If you forget about all the bad things in life, the good will take over.

If fear is staring you in the face, close your eyes so you don't have to look at it.

Be yourself , you can't be anyone else...The best you can be is you!

"Life is all about choices. When you cut away all the junk, every situation is a choice. You choose how you react to situations. You choose how people will affect your mood. You choose to be in a good mood or bad mood. The bottom line: It's your choice how you live life." by jerry

''You'll never lose your value''

the power of smile anyway is undeniable ,

The value of a smile is priceless, yet it is the cheapest, easiest, most rewarding and most sincere gift to anyone that crosses your path. A smile makes a person's day, anybody's day even a stranger's day. A smile is infectious. Start infecting people with your smile today.

A smile is nature's best antidote for discouragement. It brings rest to the weary, sunshine to those who are sad, and hope to those who are hopeless and defeated.A smile is so valuable that it can't be bought, begged, borrowed, or taken away against your will. You have to be willing to give a smile away before it can do anyone else any good.

So if someone is too tired or grumpy to flash you a smile, let him have one of yours anyway. Nobody needs a smile as much as the person who has none to give.

lots of loves & bighugs ;)

friendSHIP is sinking ;(

2010-03-29T20:50:00.000-07:00

''Friendship is a gift that is fair in all things. It roots from one's heart and involves memories that stay not for a while but for a lifetime.''

"Friendship is delicate as a glass, once broken it can be fixed but there will always be cracks" by Waqas Ahmad

I knew the time would come
When we had to go our separate ways
Our friendship never worked
I just had to break away

I was the only one who cared
But 6 months later you just forgot about what I did for you
The skin you cut was the feeling I bared
I do not want to sound so conceited
By saying you would not be alive if it was not for me
You just will not admit it but you know it is true I can see

I am sorry you did not know how much I loved you as a friend
I am sure you would never like to talk to me again
I tried everyday to knock some sense into you
But u constantly avoided all my advice
You just would not take a clue

Instead of giving up I kept trying
3 to 4 hours on the phone each day
Just listening to what was going on in your mind, never denying
Day by day, you lessened on your cutting
I finally stopped seeing your new scars
They were quickly shutting

Then came another problem
You had begun anorexia
I kept my cool so you would not lose yours too
I did the same approach when you started cutting
Unfortunately, the anorexia I could not cure

For a month later
You became detached to me
When you met ***** and ****
***** changed your thoughts into hers
You started acting stupid and seeing you like that just hurt
***** became your best friend
I never envied you guys
Cause it was great when I saw you smiling and your happiness I did not want to see end

Slowly you ignored me
Which broke my heart
Doing so much for you and this is how you repaid me
Was just too much

Surely enough, I still stuck around
Cause you were my best friend
A while later, you kicked me onto the ground
I did not like ***** for she was just too much
And you took her side and left me
I was crushed

You did not care what position I was in
You just took *****'s side cause I did not care
I decided to give up
I did enough for you already
I knew that you did not need me anymore
I just knew you were ready

It has been more than three months now
And I still think of you almost everyday
It is not cause you were my best friend
It is how and why you would cause me so much pain

''Life ends when you stop Dreaming, Hope ends when you stop Believing, Love ends when you stop Caring, Friendship ends when you stop Sharing.''

and

''The best thing about an enemy is that he/she tells the truth about you.''

with loves & bighugs ;(

let's talk FOOD ppl ;)

2010-03-28T07:29:00.000-07:00

''healthy food leads to healthy lifestyle''

''we eat to live , but we also live to eat !''

iced lime barley .
dang, it taste really good !
cnt resist it like ooo emm gee ..

deep fried fish .
a must try thingy .
feel the sensation bby ;)

coconut milk rice .

finger liking good man !

loaded with loves & bighugs ;)

uglyfeeling baby ;)

2010-03-26T21:05:00.000-07:00

''a letdown is worth a few pages , a heartbreak is worth a few books .''

everything hppens for a reason .
its all up to u to look from the +ve or -ve side .

love ,
this cutelilfeeling happens at any age , with unexpected person and during the most least expected moment .
so cheer up !
there' s nothg wrong to fall in love with smone .
being rejected is normal to make us think out of the box ,
the experience we gain from evry single thing we did , make us more matured ,
either u realize it or not .
as i said , although smtimes plans doesn't goes ur way , it doesn't mean that the world is against u!
u should make a different to achieve better lifestyle .
being urself and knwing the true u is very important ,
this love thingy has taught me a lots in life ,
seriously , it makes me realize that sometimes what happens is the best for us even though that tiny miny thingy doesn't goes the way we wanted .
just chillex ,
this feeling won't fade as long as its sincere .
therefore , being rejected is normal .
from there u'll learn to appreciate what u have , learn to think b4 u take an action , and it teaches u the most valuable lesson .
so dnt feel so offense when ppl doesn't love u bck .
out there , there are tons of ppl that love u the way u are .
just give them chance to love u ;)
not worth crying and begging for ppl that doesn't appreciate u and feel the same thing u feel towards them .
move on bby ;)
so , just live ur life ur own way .
rock it !
and constantly enjoy evry sec u have !
life is just too short for worryg , sadness and feeling down .
love urself and love ur life !

''make a change , to make the world a better place to live !''

-tons of loves & bighugs-

She ROAR ;)

2010-03-25T10:36:00.000-07:00

=.='

hyehye...lets start this blog thingy with a simple hello !!

the purpose i create this blog thingy is just for fun .
i wanna share bit here and there story bout my life with people out there .
hurmm....
i love to laugh.. smile.. addicted to music.. ohh sungguh photogedik and i totally love my life..
Currently ENJOYING life to the max !

til then ,

-lots of loves & bighugs !-